Everything Changed

Make no mistake, it’s a really good thing. My rants and tears, even though they were prayers, were oppressive in nature. I’ve been reading from a few of my personal prayer journals, and now…

I realize I chose Him, even though I knew it would be costly (He is WORTHY) in terms of suffering, and even when my strength faltered, and my faith felt insincere, He has been faithful to teach me with affliction in order to sanctity me for His use (that most blessed of situations). There is NO downside to this equation, because HE reigns in both power and compassion! I absolutely cannot fail (sin) when it is Him working in me!

When seeing in print the complete change in my attitude, after my painful trials, I am renewed in joyful hope and godly wisdom, from the knowledge of just how thoroughly HE is with me!

I have been dealing with the weight of the devil’s accusations, now close and personal without a villain and abuser in my life to blame, when I fall short or feel bad. While I had my innocence taken, and the presence of it’s simple joys, now I am gifted with unshakable and robust rejoicing, by virtue of the knowledge that HE is WITH me. It’s not mere happiness, but freedom and an invigorating passion that motivates me. In my praise of Him, there is no more room for fear! And here is this quote from my journal, “Praising You in evil circumstances gives me victory. It either changes my perspective to see Your Hand, or it moves Your Hand to change it to Your plan.”

“Emotions are great indicators but they are terrible dictators.” I refuse to be dictated to by the terrible and oppressive religion of my emotions! All of my prayers and complaints from before came out of me because I had been oppressed, but He still answered me and freed me. Then I had to change my attitude!